Inside Out - Matre

My mom and dad have been having a hard time

Hard for them to see their son in the state that I am

I can’t imagine, that must be the worst

Give the gift of life and watch how much it can hurt, oh

I told the woman that I love, but don’t see now

This pain’s enough to make me not want to conceive a child

I don’t want anyone to feel how I feel

How could I birth another knowin' they’ll suffer like me? Wow

I called my grandmother, finally I broke down

I said I’m floating, Grandma, I got no ground

Everything I thought I knew I don’t know now

I need to heal, I need help, I don’t know how

She said «I love you, but listen to yourself a while

Just thinking of you you’re bound to drive yourself wild

All consumed, it’s not a healthy route

Best medicine for you is find some others you can help out»

Damn, her words hit me deep

I realized I’d been trapped in myself now for weeks

As she turned to me and offered me a true wisdom pearl

«You were put here on this Earth to help others» Hey world

Come out yourself now, come out your mind

Come back to health now, come back to life

Ancestral wisdom, come back, rewind

(Pull up, wheel up, bring it back come rewind!)

Come out yourself now, come out your mind

Come back to health now, come back to life

No one’s an island come back outside

(Pull up, wheel up, bring it back come rewind!) a

I, looked at my grandma, knew that I had been blessed

But I resisted, I knew this was a real test

I was holding on to pain like my very breath

Like if I let go of that, there’d be nothing left

The roughest step is the one into the unknown

(step out the house) but my ego’s saying run home

Cause if I reach out to others, put myself aside

I’d learn that what I thought was humble was a selfish lie

«I can’t do nothing, I’m messed up inside»

Only to find my suffering is a space where I hide

Cause I’m so terrified to see the gift I can provide

Turns out being humble is letting your light shine, cause

The light I’m talking about, the world needs now

It’s not for me and it’s not meant to be locked in the house, so

I got to work and I did find out

Help other, heal yourself, turn it inside out, go

So I did finally come out the house

And saw what my grandma was talking about

And although the first steps were walking in doubt

I took a leap of faith, rain dancing in a drought

Reached out to my brother, hoping I could help

Only to discover that it brought me closer to myself

Lent a hand to my sister cause she was in need

Then caught a glimpse of happiness and saw it’s bigger than me

My mom and dad have been havin' a good time

Happy and retired and their son is doin just fine

I can’t imagine, that must be the best

Care for someone so much, you worry about yourself less

I told the woman that I love that we’ll meet again

And when it happens I would really love to be your friend

For now just let it mend, get our lives together and

When the time comes we can rejoice to bring another in

My grandmother will be happy as hell then

I hope she lives to one day meet my children

But either way they’ll meet her through wisdom I’ll be revealing

«You were put here on this Earth to help others»

-That's healing